1st Adjustment

1st Adjustment
到今天為止. 因為開智齒傷口的關係, 嘴巴還是無法張開.
腫退了一些, 但是痛還是在.
今天蔡醫師把門牙的橡皮筋拿掉,
取而代之的是細鐵絲.
他把牙套又勒緊了, 剛習慣了牙套在嘴裡的感覺, 現在又得體驗新的張度.
這是第一次感覺到被牙套揪緊的酸軟.

狗皮膏藥

Swollen Face
星期五, 天氣還算溫暖. 拔完智齒的第二天. 臉腫到不像話. 連吞嚥口水喉嚨都會痛.
還好今天國外是Good Friday, 所以只是得進辦公室, 但是不用辦公.
(昨天, 那個氣死人的客人, 我交代過到星期一我都不接她們電話的!!)
我特別繞去路口的躍獅買"撒隆巴斯".
男藥師問我是扭傷嗎? 我說拔智齒. 他說這一牌的貼布比較有效果, 還有紅外線效果因此解痛力最佳, 而且價錢跟撒隆巴斯依樣.

到公司以後, 我就迫不急待的拆開來用....結果!!好個貼布!!
心中一股氣憤!!這是捉弄人嗎!! 貼布上還有綠色點點呢!! 還有藥廠的mark喔...然後還有"輝陽藥品公司".....真是他XXX的, 好想打電話去躍獅罵那個男藥師喔!!
還想打去這家"輝陽藥品公司"罵人!!
廣告一定要做成這樣嗎!!!??? 貼在臉上能見人喔!!
真是氣死人了!!!!
要不是真的太痛的.....
真不該聽信男人的!! 真是不可靠!!!!

(我只在辦公室貼, 或在家裡...出門時就撕掉...所以用的好兇喔!!)

極至的痛覺

麻藥：醫生是用細長的針打入牙齒周圍，其餘唇、舌部分以塗抹之方式。其過程只要有疼痛之感，便再添加劑量，以注射方式在打入牙肉上。雖是為了麻醉痛感，但是神經還是可以感覺到針在牙肉上的戳痛，然後麻感就開始作用，痛覺只是相對不敏感罷了。

我的意識一直很清楚，於是我知曉什麼叫恐懼、害怕，感覺、聽覺甚至變得特別敏銳。醫生每一個動作，其實我都很清楚的再腦海裡感受得到，雖然我看不見。最害怕的是醫生和助手常常很粗魯的戳到我的唇阿、舌阿讓我覺得疼痛難適，往往也是造成我在手術椅上掙扎的主因。

尤其當醫生無法完整將一顆智齒完整取出時；以雷射刀切割後，再切割，然後牙根還是牢牢的揪再根部；他試以榔頭鑿動切割過的牙齒以便分塊拔取，他敲擊的力道整個由下顎關節來承受時，就像是以榔頭和鑿子試著鑿開一塊大石頭，那撞擊的力道直接都由下巴來承受…他鑿了很多次每一次敲擊3到4下我就受不了了，覺得下巴塊被打掉的感覺！這樣的手續大概分段實施不下十次。

我知道我的狀況是”tough case”，全口X-剛片出來時，主治大夫就預告過了。

今天拔的是4顆中，右下顎的那一顆，應該就是根部壓著神經的那一顆。

一般來說，輕易的case通常會由看診的醫師自己拔，但是我的主治矯正醫師卻把我轉給台大的吳醫師，他說我們要相處兩年，他不希望因為他在幫我拔過智齒後，我就對他產生恐懼。

在第一次約好拔智齒的門診前，吳醫生調了班，於是當天又交回到了我的主治蔡醫師。光是要取得左上顎之智齒（我的嘴巴太小，智齒又在幾乎是喉嚨腔的位置，因此一直無法照到牙齒完整的根部）的X光片，就已經折騰了好以陣子，拍了好幾張，都沒成功，X光片怎麼樣都推不到裡面的位子。蔡醫生要求護士小姐放棄作業，他還是沒幫我動刀！於是case又轉回給了吳醫師。

註：X光片是一個大約3cm X 4 cm，以塑膠模套包附著，以夾具夾住推至口腔內好讓整顆牙齒顯影在底片上。它不是一個完全無法彎折的片子，但是塑膠片的硬度與邊緣仍是會頂的口腔疼痛不堪。

離開診所時已經9點了，我想吳醫生從沒想過會花這麼長的時間。2個小時。總覺得再一半時，他已經失去了耐性。我聽見蔡醫師過來跟吳醫生說我的情形比較麻煩「辛苦你了」！中間，吳醫生還趕走了在看診台附近跑動的小孩子。

蓋在手術布下的我，不斷的因為痛苦而哭泣。
我一向對痛覺很能忍耐的，可是今天真的是超過了我的極限….我全身顫抖，覺得自己要昏絕過去了，可是痛卻這麼清晰的再腦海中感受著。

我只是覺得很孤單，然後，沒有任何可握住的手陪我度過恐懼….
這個平常看診用的診椅，今晚卻是我的手術台，沒有隱私，人員來來去去的，而我在承受最大的苦痛！

我想「感覺」是沒有辦法被麻醉的。恐懼更是。

我只想在Gianni的懷裡好好哭一場，因為我已經沒有力氣控制眼淚了，….或許流乾了我就可以…就不在感覺痛了。

現在逢線的傷口開始感到痛覺了…..扁條線也痛….舌頭還麻麻的….嘴唇是腫的… 臉頰外部…是像被風雪凍傷般的麻痛…覺得它隨時都要失去知覺了…..
我還有眼淚嗎?

飽餐一噸

牙套除了嵌制我長歪的牙齒之外，一並也將我對美食的慾望都給剷除了。

中午，Tina請我們到來來Sheraton的「12 Kitchen」吃Buffet。

12 Kitchen offers the best buffet in town, which so far ranked the number 1 for buffet place on my list!

自從帶上牙套以後，我只能吃流質的東西！去吃buffet 無疑是一種浪費，但是因為東西多樣，所以我起碼還可以選吃一些湯湯水水或是不需咀嚼的東西裹腹。
我以為自己會望著五花十色的美食興嘆，但是卻發現自己可是安分的很！

我用直覺判斷我可能進食的項目，也不會自不量力。不過，我竟然發現自己連煮熟的紅羅蔔都沒辦法咀嚼！慘！

我吃了3塊鮭魚sashmi、2塊糖醋魚、一碗擔仔麵（可是裡面的豆芽菜咬不動）、
一碗雞湯（只取湯）、一塊麻辣鴨血+油條泡辣湯、4顆草莓 + 2顆棉花糖沾巧克力、一小口蛋糕、一杯咖啡、一塊香瓜。

恩！還真多。這是自從帶上牙套以後，”吃有飽”的一餐。

回觀這一星期我過的東西：

Sunday: 一條烤蕃薯（afternoon）+ 雞排便當（dinner）
Monday: 豆漿+油條（breakfast）+ 粥（lunch）+ 羅蔔粥（dinner）
Tuesday：羊肉湯麵（麵咬不動，羊肉給Johnny吃）+ 2碗
十全烏骨雞湯（dinner）
Wednesday: 2碗鰻魚湯（lunch）＋ 1碗雞湯（從早餐吃到晚餐）
Thursday: 豆花 （breakfast）+ 麵線（買了麻油豬干湯只喝一口）（lunch）+ yogert & 一顆茶葉蛋（dinner）
Today: Buffet

我現在才知道，什麼叫「隨時處於飢餓狀態」。

EXECUTION DAY II

The day is getting late and the temperature has dropped.
I stared at my braces in the mirror with my mouth wide opened！
I have never felt this blank out…
Feel being invaded by alienation, something had occupied my teeth that caused my teeth lost its functions and no longer been a part of mine!

Weirdo!!

I can’t really think if I keep staring at it. The braces is taking over my brain…
It not a sense of pain, either not aching there… it just something not belong to my body but attached tightly sucking on me…

I’d better use the time wisely as I still have tones of German homework, I thought!

Sharon called and woke me up in between my dozing off while I was writing my homework in bed. It was nice that she brought me dinner and accompanied me for a while.

So, I am now the “牙套妹”。

It just a weary cold day … I immersed my self again into the hot bath…

The teeth braces has isolated me from my existing world…
I am having an urge for a goodnight kiss to be put in sleep!

EXECUTION DAY

一直無法想像裝上牙套後的感覺，所以還不知道要從何緊張起。
反而是生理對”約定的時間’較為敏感，往往在因為害怕”失約”的壓力中，而睡不好、睡不熟。就像怕錯趕不上火車又已經買了票的感覺。

從百葉窗透過來的光線中，知道天亮了，但是沒聽到鬧鐘響，原來眼睛張開時才八點多…睡睡醒醒…ㄍ一ㄥ到10點半左右，梳洗後，還是趕急吃了昨晚預購的「排骨便當」。

約診時間11點。

抵診所時已經11:15分了，還好是我記錯時間。 11點半才是我的處決時刻…

隨手抓了書架上超大字版的＜小王子＞，坐在診所的玻璃窗前裝著一副很悠閒式的享受一下陽光！

手機響了，Sharon 打來，要約晚上吃飯。
『靠！阿妳不是不知道我今天要幹麻ㄛ！』….
通完電話，將手機關為「震動模式」。

11點半都過了! 小護士才叫我到”電椅”上，醫生還沒過來。兩個護士再我身邊走來走去，並放了一堆東西。 反正，我很努力的將眼睛盯在書上。從容不迫。


醫生打完招呼後，簡單了說明了今天的排程。便開始’執刑’。

首先，為了不影響牙套的黏付工程，醫生架了一個”張口器”將我的齒顎張至極限，並將上下唇撐開！（這對我來說才是最痛苦的部分）

（這時又有人打電話來了！我聽到手機在包包裡震動的聲音。 是誰阿？還有誰不知道今天是誰麼日子的嗎？這時候打來！）

由於張口器是one size的規格，因此，據醫生表示我的嘴巴過小，所以會撐得很痛！真是痛死了！ 因為它就摳在牙齦上，並且是勾在上下唇上；因此每鑲4顆牙，就休息5分鐘。

※剛剛電話是Marie打的。通常他不會隨便打電話來的。我回撥到宜蘭。
Marie說他想告知我「娘娘交代」的事。她說她幫我問了娘娘，祂說我今年 “讀書可成”， 沒有特別需要「化解」的事。她問我是否知道Gianni’s兄弟排行？說如果他是大兒子或小兒子，”結婚可”。
什麼！「結婚？」
「結婚？」明年不行嗎???牙套都已經上了4顆牙齒，現在是怎樣？！
「靠！」戴牙套結婚ㄛ??? （還好醫生不在旁邊）「明年不行嗎?」
「娘娘說明天沒婚運耶！反正我會把多餘的費用和資料記回去給妳啦！」
………….※

我的brace 據醫師說，是什麼最好的藍寶晶鑽(但不會亮晶晶)…所以比鋼製的貴上2萬元。每個brace的形狀是兩兩1對的，所以從門牙上起。

醫生先把每一顆要上的牙齒清洗乾淨，然後在brace上塗上一種像3秒膠的東西，並參考我的牙齒X-Ray照片黏到他計算的位置上；並用一種長的很奇怪的測量器（金屬製、長的很像凶器、十字尖牙型的）校準位置，再用一種會發出藍色冷光的”手槍”照一照（應該是烘乾3秒膠用的）。

每一顆牙齒，大該需要2分鐘的黏貼時間。

其實比較辛苦的是，在這個過程，有一種會讓你頭皮發麻，牙齒發軟的東西，就是抽風機（抽口水用的）。 （這是最恐怖的機器!!洗牙時也用的到。）
醫生在黏braces時，因為怕”口水”影響到黏性，因此抽風機會不停地在左邊抽口水。連我都搞不清楚到底是抽風還是送風，反正就是有風….然後搞的左邊牙齒酸軟無力….腳都軟了….必須這樣熬到過程結束。
醫生老是要我把抽風器咬緊，我連偷捏醫生的力氣都沒有，更何況我還得忍受張牙器摳在牙齦上的痛!!

醫生說先上6顆的，結果他就自作主張的把上排牙齒都黏完了。

※ 一般上下牙咬合處為0.22cm，而我大致有0.5cm，因此下排牙齒的Braces要等到下半年才能進行。（怕上牙會摳到下排牙齒的矯正器）※

每一粒立方體的brace上，除了與牙齒黏合的一面外，都有ㄠ槽；表面的十字凹槽橫向的是鋼線的”卡筍”，側面四邊的是為了套橡皮筋已固定鋼線的凹槽。（至於正面的直向的凹槽是幹麻用的，我得再去問醫生?）

上排牙齒12顆上完後（最後兩顆臼齒不用），醫生拿了一條”鋼線”….（叫什麼偉大的材質我忘了…反正是有記憶功能的線）… 串嵌過牙齒上的braces…綁於內部的braces上（最後兩個顆牙用的是金屬的braces，固定效果較佳。講話時看不見，所以用金屬的即可。）

然後一一用橡皮筋將金屬線固定於braces上。

醫生問我要用什麼顏色的橡皮筋，什麼顏色都有。但是因為星期二要去碩士班的入學英文口試，所以我還是選擇用透明橡皮筋。

12顆中扣去位於最後部分作為固定鋼線用的左右個一的牙齒，我僅能用橡皮筋的只有6顆。其餘的4顆：向中側站的2顆門牙、向中看齊而橫長的2顆犬齒，醫生還是得採用細鋼線來固定！（因為橡皮筋的力道不夠與長歪的牙齒抗衡！）

歷經2個半鐘頭，我也轉變成「牙套妹」了。醫生叫我照鏡子，我只是看著牙套發呆，想不透它為什麼要在哪裡。

醫生、跟兩個小護士拿來了相機，歸檔照用的，照了我綁上牙套後的樣子。
再一次的因為嘴巴小而折騰！
最主要是拍下整牙齒的排列狀況，因此必須用2個長的很樣”鞋拔”的器具將左右兩頰拉開，然後還要塞入一個寬壺型的鏡子以幫助口腔內部與牙齒分離，以便成拍下整個齒顎的完整圖像……至於怎麼不舒服法….就是你用兩手把嘴巴往左右拉至極限，然後有人又用湯匙扣在你嘴巴裡左右兩側…..（好吧！真是夠了！）

……………..走出診所，下唇是烏青的！
走進7-11買了條＜小護士＞。
天氣也變得好冷ㄛ，都快兩點了。有點餓，有點累。我打著冷顫，回了一通電話給Sharon…路經成功國宅市場買了一條烤蕃薯，以裹腹。

A days b4 execution

~Raining Sat. ~

I had very long sleep last night, I was tired. Got up only after 1pm!

I continued my reading of “The Alchemist”, did 2 laundry today and had cleaned my bathroom after the new bath tub being replaced 3 days ago…
I finally had a nice sea-salt bath!! A really Bath which I haven’t had for more than 2 years!!

Got Craig’s LOR（Letter of Reference） today… few wording seem not too right on it! Hence, I had made a trip to my office to get the simple of LOR from which Ms Ang sent me! Have explained and asked with email again back to Craig. Hope he’s gonna make it before my interview!! （Don’t let me down, Craig!!!）

Wade came up to ask me about how to approach to a girl, a sales clerk at the Carrefour, whom he happened to be fascinated by her smiles.
Basically, what I told him is “no games, no holding back and to be true hearted”! But after all, I hope he’s got the guts to show it!!
Gimini…. ^_*
He could have asked Gianni instead of me tho!! Perhaps, he needs a guide.
But girls aren’t that complicated at all!!

I can’t believe that I am still up at this time, 3 am in the morning.
Tomorrow is the day…. And I knew I should go to bed early and get up early for my last 排骨便當 before the braces placed on my teeth.

Anyway..,.the Sat, was over more than 3 hours ago……
Sweet dreams in the rain…………:)

PS. I watched the movie “Be Cool” on my way back home. Had good laugh about it. Uma….she’s deadly killing beautiful!!

The 4th Force

Notthing special today?
Just being through the “finding my own dream” process the whole day!

Still in transiting of convincing myself about the study plan thing.
Have discussed with 美玲姐、素幸姐、Herman and Greg thought the net
Mom called tonight to give the answer a last kick!
I think the “Yes”! Is pretty clear by now.

I bought the German Dictionary and some books @ 101
Add up few functions to my blogs…
And Now am waiting to see if honey is gonna come on line…?
He’s got a party to go tonight, though.

Weekend is ahead, sound like Elsa and Sharon are gonna be busy!
Well, time to experiment a bit of “me and myself” kind of days!
I do have German homework, and test on Tue. tho.
As the answer was pretty clear of the Master study…then there are more things coming ahead to me before it really starts…
It’s raining again…and I am hungry now

Personal Legend

Congrats came later. I had it from Rob and Elsa, and from Gianni's came later tonight.

But do I really happy? I meant do I really want the ‘degree’?
Is it a Vanity of my life?

I read though the paragraphs, which talked about obligation of realizing Self's “Personal Legend” and the force of 4 obstacles

Personal Legend-- “Its what you have always wanted to accomplish”.

The 4 Obstacles:
1. Impossible, prejudice, fear, guilt.
2. love
3. fear of defeats
4. fear for realizing what we fought for

Am I facing the 4th force?
Oscar Wilde said: “Each man kills the thing eh loves”.
Am I making the same mistake?
It says, “The mere possibility of getting what we want fills the soul of the ordinary person with guilt.”

“Ordinary Person” – me!

“Guilt” – that is probably what I am having now.

Do I really worthy of the degree?

I think I am bargaining with the pecuniary value of getting the degree.

Was it wise at all?

DAMN ME!!

Anyway, above is nothing to do with the braces! Since it will only be placed from this Sunday. Now my study plan has taken over my nerves!!

Can anyone tell me 3 reasons of why do I need the MS degree??

It’s the FUR GARMENT, which any girl would love to have one. Some get it with couple hundred bucks, some have the expensive one cost them more than thousands. But they were lucky to have their loved one paid for – including their parents or Bfs.

And I am now about paying USD23,000 dollars to the fur garment with money I borrowed！I do not need to wear fur to work as my closet has garments which good enough for my present.

Wearing fur does make me look like same class of the rich-ass group, and as well have more opportunities to have them invite you to the vanity world-party!

Then, the value of the fur will shown, as you need to protect yourself from the coldness which built by these particular peers in order to make them feel good of wearing the fur in it with frivolous cold lives they are living in!

I wonder why do I want the fur garment, as I was never want to be the part of cold ass in the rest of my life?

Anyone…tell me why do I need to buy the fur garment!!???

Anyway time for bed now.

Why dont I feel happy at all?

Korina from the business school has called to inform that I have been accepted to the program. (without congrats!) also set up for the interview on Tue.

I text messaged Gianni & Rob.
Heard back NO one!

No emails from Gianni yesterday, perhaps nothing either for today L
Knew it from little chat last night 1st time through MSN heard he worked at Zurich and in Conference today.

My neck still pains due to the tensed-muscles cramped during my sleep last night. I think I stressed myself out again.

【stress produce belly fat cells according to an article I read tonight.】

Called the clinic, the dentists decided to let me break my payment to few times.. Therefore… don’t have to brow money from my mom now. J

Regained my energy during the Chi-Kung practicing but completely used up by now..
Time to go to bed early today.

*kiss-Nacht*

Gees, where do I get that much money!

The down payment for the treatment is very high, especially goes with Drs. from NTU system, they are mostly money-suckers! I had to call my mom for the financial support. Have to borrow the cash from my parents.

I think I am a very “expensive” daughter or an extravagant one!! I am too costy, which sometimes I wondered if my parents haven’t had me, they probably have been a millionaires by now!

- I have wasted their money on the private girl’s college, which I hated so much.
- I have made them paid my life in Canada.
- I have made them paid my ESL
- I have made them paid the Tourism training school which I was no longer working in the field.
- And, now I want a master degree which cost a large fortune
- And I have to such money on teeth orthodontia.

Well, my parents should have drowned me right after I born if they have knew me!! I start to feel sorry…:(

小S牙套日記

March 08, 2005 Tue. (sunny day)

在著中午的陽光，我把這一本簡單的書看完了。沒什麼太多關於牙套的新聞。
重點整理:
1. 被甩了。She got dumped during the orthodontic stage. （不過這因該不是起因於牙套吧）
2. 她很幸運並沒有疼痛與發炎之不適
3. 刷牙是每天惱人的工程
4. Braces would not impede kisses! （Ok, good to know! 真正如何，以後你們再問我的苦主!）
5. No curries. No Green Veggies or carrots, avoid anything with colours. （I wonder if Red Wine included!）
以上。

苦主回函

約好去看電影的。＜Million Dollar Baby＞真是賺人熱淚。
悲。
等不到公車，回家時，Gianni的信早到了，10:03 PM。

他大致上說，以前他也裝過，所以不要覺得丟臉；他笑說，我該擔心的是把他一個人丟著，孤單。（難道，我太self-centred 嗎?）

好吧！他真願當苦主。（來日，小女子會回報你的！而且，起碼這18個月，沒人會來搶這個位子了！）

。熱淚盈框。

你怎麼看「牙套妹」?

忐忑不安。於是我想知道別人怎麼看！（還好不是小學生，不用怕被男生取笑！）

I text-messaged Rob.
他最在意女生外表了，而且超雙子!
Kris：『Rob, What do you think about a girl with tooth braces?』
Rob：『Nothing wrong with braces, just no oral sex! :-P』
Kris：『Gees…yah its easy to make fun L! What of is your girlfriend who’s getting it?』
Rob：『They are okay! Don’t worry! They help teeth look good! A year or two of pain for a lifetime of good teeth J』
好吧！那個”外貿協會會長”都覺得沒什大不了！

Kris：「妳有沒看過小S的牙套日記？我星期天就要裝了，好緊張耶！」
詩：「沒耶！你真要裝ㄛ！我都要拆了」
盈詩終於熬出頭了。

好吧！就看他怎麼說了。

What's Gianni Gonna say?

還沒見到報告時，我一直問醫生可不可以1年就好，反正今年打算唸書，也不會愛到真要去結婚！（醫生一直問有近年內會結婚嗎?其實我是比較在意如果學校申請過了，畢業時我想要一張美美的學士照）

初步判斷，18個月！（天阿！絕望….）我躲得過一年，但不可能躲他18個月！
如果因為這樣被甩了，那起碼，未來我自己還是美美的。

拖了30年，就別再拖了！越快越好才是！

雖然，要正視現實，但是還是對Gianni覺得無比抱歉。
為什麼，我在他面前都沒能美美的？

我們在一起的時候，我病得像得肺癆的猛咳！還因為鼻涕擤久了，鼻孔口潰爛結疤，猛看像是一大塊鼻屎黃黃的黏在上面！然後兩頰也因為過敏而粗燥不堪！
好不容易恢復正常了，下次他來看我時，我卻又變成牙套妹！

幹麻考驗一個人「情人眼裡出西施」的視力程度阿！他要連這都能不介意，我想他真是我的「年度最佳苦主」了！除非他真愛得昏。
不過換成是他，我也不會介意。

大會報告

March, 07, 2005 Monday (Sunny)
今早，我向同事預告了我的”整牙工程”，Natash告訴我，或許該去買一本＜小S牙套日記＞來看看。

其實大部分沒經歷牙套經驗的人一聽到我的牙醫的簡報一定會昏了過去，但是我是真的下定決心了！雖然代價昂貴、雖然歷程艱辛，但要是因為無法進食而受了幾公斤，救當做我是把錢砸去抽脂了！更何況兩年以後，我就可以笑的美美的，或許還可以很粗魯的大笑，都不用怕被發現整口不齊黃牙！（更何況，我沒蛀牙！）

'Sentance Time"(判刑時刻)

March, 06, 2005 Sunday (Sunny but Windy)
My tooth-exam result has back at the clinic; therefore my orthodontist called up the appointment at 1 PM.

Oh mine, I had never imagined that I would get on this Tooth – treatment Project one day, but I am here now.

PS.
1. The thoroughly teeth-check for the Orthodontic Report at the other specialist clinic was rater a torture experiment.!!
2. My hearing today was another one…. therefore I’d skip the contents!!
My execution time will be on 13th for glutting up the braces, and operation on 16th for removing my wisdom teeth.

Oh- mine, 1st thing came in mind was...."Gees...what's Gianni going to say...?"

睜眼說瞎話

那年10歲，五年級。音樂老師陳運添來代我們班的課。

他檢查班上每個同學的儀容，指甲、與有沒有刷牙！通過的才可以坐下。

然而，我從小就知道自己牙齒很醜（也因如此更不在乎刷牙。睡前我不一定會刷!但是早上我媽都會把牙膏擠好，因此沒刷她會知道! 總是馬虎了事。）！我更害怕被老師發現我牙齒不整，更何況許多牙齒因不齊而重疊，常常刷不到卡住的地方，所以會有一點黃黃的！

輪到我時，真的好想從地面鑽下去！因為好怕被發現。

結果，陳老師讓我坐下！
誰叫我是他最疼愛的學生。（好學生總是有特權的，只要受寵！）

於是，我更不敢在我們班上笑了！因為我並不受我們班導寵愛（他甚至常常藉機諷我，我才10歲!），我害怕被發現”特權”。

而班上那個他最寵愛的女生，有著一口編貝般的白牙。

馬里雅那海溝

我的門牙向中間側立，其餘的也是向中看齊！於是，每當我笑得最自然的照片，就會看到我門牙中間有一條馬里雅那海溝！然後我就會用Photoshop把它修過才送洗。

所以，我的大頭照不是沒有笑容，就是笑的很僵，因為不想露牙，又被強迫要笑。